"Automaticly I see you, my heart starts beating faster and faster. Should I say anything? Should I avoid you? Hold on, let me fix my hair..."  These are some of the thoughts that went through my head. I walk in there and I hear "You Belong With Me" by Taylor Swift, its seems like that song is just following me lately. I get a drink, go up to the register and am waiting to get out of there fast, nope. That woman keeps talking...... Dont they understand? I have to get out of here before he sees me. Too late, he just walked in, and yes, he saw me, mouthing the words to a Taylor Swift song, my hair messy, and bearly any make up on. I shouldn't care, should I? I mean, really I dont like him! Hes just a boy I know, nothing special, right? He goes behind the counter, he smiles, I look into his eyes, yep, Im hooked. He waves and I mouth the words "Hey", mainly just because I couldn't speak. He opened his mouth and it looked like he was going to say something, and what does my mother do? "We'll, lets go." So I wave good-bye. I dont like him. I dont like him I dont like him I dont like him I dont like him, thats all I could think all the way home. Just repeating it all the way home. I dont like him.     

I knew I would feel this way, thats why I avoided you. I knew it, deep down, I wasn't over it, but you know "Its easier to lie to your self than to face the truth". Just when I was happy and I wasn't confused, you came into my life again. But Im not letting you in, because Im not sitting around watching you get married, or have kids, or live, live without me. It wasn't like this, when I seen you, its easier when you dont notice me, and I tell myself you dont care, or you already forgot me. This is silly to even entertain the idea of us, I still want to be your friend, but I cant because I cant even look into your eyes without falling for you. This is soo tough, you cant even believe, but its better this way, there is no more us, or I <3 yous, or Mrs. (Whatever), or day dreaming about your solos, or listening to hotforteacher thinking about you, or accidentally thinking about you, no more. Not just for me, for you too. You're nice, if I liked you I would pursue you and you'd be too nice to tell me you didnt like me. And if that happened I'd just lie to myself like the past year. I know I've said this before, but I dont care if I like him, I'll push them down and never let them surface, Ive been hurt too many time, and waited too long, this is best, this story is over.

LYRICS!!

Mountain by Good Charlotte

 

All these dreams and all these plans,
I built them all with these two hands,
Everything I've realized my dreams.

The city lights shine down and they blind me sometimes,
But through it all I was lost but I found my way

So tell me what you want 'cause I would give you anything,
Tell me what you need and I'll go get it.
I'd give up all these dreams to have you in my arms right now,
I'd give up everything and I'd forget it.

I wasn't on a mountain
When it came to me.
All my life's been wasted,
Chasing shallow dreams.

So here we are,
Let me lift you up and show you this world over me,
And all these things what I've gained and what I've seen,
It can't compare to the love that you could give to me.

So tell me what you want 'cause I would give you anything,
Tell me what you need and I'll go get it.
I'd give up all these dreams to have you in my arms right now,
I'd give up everything and I'd forget it.

I wasn't on a mountain
When it came to me.
All my life's been wasted,
Chasing shallow dreams.

Years go by
And nothing's slowing down the time
Years go by
And then they're wasted.
All this time
I thought that I gained everything,
If you're not mine
I'm so empty.

I wasn't on a mountain
When it came, when it came to me.
All my life's been wasted,
Chasing shallow dreams.

So please come back to me, I'm right here waiting
So please come back to me now...
All these dreams and all these plans,
I built them all with these two hands,
Everything I've realized my dreams.

The city lights shine down and they blind me sometimes,
But through it all I was lost but I found my way

So tell me what you want 'cause I would give you anything,
Tell me what you need and I'll go get it.
I'd give up all these dreams to have you in my arms right now,
I'd give up everything and I'd forget it.

I wasn't on a mountain
When it came to me.
All my life's been wasted,
Chasing shallow dreams.

So here we are,
Let me lift you up and show you this world over me,
And all these things what I've gained and what I've seen,
It can't compare to the love that you could give to me.

So tell me what you want 'cause I would give you anything,
Tell me what you need and I'll go get it.
I'd give up all these dreams to have you in my arms right now,
I'd give up everything and I'd forget it.

I wasn't on a mountain
When it came to me.
All my life's been wasted,
Chasing shallow dreams.

Years go by
And nothing's slowing down the time
Years go by
And then they're wasted.
All this time
I thought that I gained everything,
If you're not mine
I'm so empty.

I wasn't on a mountain
When it came, when it came to me.
All my life's been wasted,
Chasing shallow dreams.

So please come back to me, I'm right here waiting
So please come back to me now...